Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Wounded (Poetry)
I was going through old albums on my photo site and found this. It's amazing the things that you can find.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
One..To..Ten ( A poem that was published)
One...To...Ten...
By Jessica Elizabeth ArnoldOne...Two...
Not to much that I can do.
Three...Four...
They will come knocking at my door.
Five...Six...
I feel like I've lost my tricks.
Seven...Eight...
I've been filled with all the hate.
Nine...Ten...
I've let them down again.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Unsettle River- Lyrics to my song
Unsettled River
Lyrics By, Jessica E. Arnold
Lying here in the dark
waiting for you once again.
How many times can we do this?
Why do you keep making lies?
Tell me now
or say good bye
I need to know why.
Is my pain your intention?
Tears keep falling
building this unsettled river
unsettled river
Today you said you loved me
as you kissed me good bye
time slowly goes on
and you're off with her again
as I continue to cry.
Tell me now
or say good bye
I need to know why.
Is my pain your intention?
Tears keep falling
building this unsettled river
unsettled river
Can't you see the pain
my tears keep falling down
please come home to me
and make my sorrows drown.
Tell me now
or say good bye
I need to know why.
Is my pain your intention?
Tears keep falling
building this unsettled river
unsettled river
Lying here in the dark
waiting for you once again.
How many times can we do this?
Why do you keep making lies?
Monday, November 22, 2010
A Dead Rose
A heart to me is like a rose. Big, full, starts out small and blooms. It's delicate, pure, soft and silky. It is made with sharp thorns to protect it. There is that instant happy feeling the moment you look at them, and most importantly it's alive.
What happens when the rose wilts? Does the heart wilt too? As they wilt the colors slowly fade, and the leaves begin to fall like tears. A rose's petal is soft and silky, and it's how you feel deep inside; when your heart is full. You're happy, loved, and care-free. Your walls are up for protection, as a rose uses it's thorns for it's protection. So enlighten me, and tell me what happens when a rose starts to wilt?
It dries up and everything falls apart in the end. Some prefer hanging them to their walls upside down, some throw them away, while others flatten them into a book; but why? I take each petal that once was beautiful, and I peel them off to store them in my vases. Didn't this rose once show a symbol of "I Love You"? I thought it did anyway.
So, what happens when the heart dies? Do we treat it so? Do we let it hang from the walls we built? Do we throw it away like it's garbage? Or, do we peel it apart and put it at the bottom of our vases? I just don't even know. I clearly don't understand.
My heart is much like a dead rose... therefor my heart must be dead.
Obesity In Children
Long ago many would not have thought of obesity as a serious issue in the world, because it was once a rare disease. Now it has become one of the most widespread epidemics, and has become quite serious for children living with obesity.
Obesity is n excess amount of fat on a person, due to genes, environment, and behavior habits. It's the same for adults and children. The children living with obesity usually come from obese parents. They either get the genes of these parents, or get this disease in due time from the environment they are in, also the habits, and behavior. That would consist of their diets of high calorie, and high in fat foods; sitting in front of the T.V., and playing video games all day. That all takes it's tole on a child after so long. These children tend to eat larger portions, and a lot of junk food while in front of the T.V., and playing video games. Mothers who have diabetes also have children at risk of being obese. Health issues increase highly for the children living with obesity. The serious medical problems they get are; emotional, and social problems due to them being overweight. They are also most likely to be obese as adults with risks of heart disease, and strokes. I tend to wonder why there isn't much done about this? Are these obese parents not helping the issue of this rapid growing medical issues, and are the doctors doing everything possible to help treat this and prevent it?
There are no medication to treat these children with obesity, as there are for adults. The medication is more dangerous, than the obesity is for them. Medication used for obesity would effect the growth of a child, so they feel it's not best for them to be treated. They do recommend that the children start a healthy diet (low calorie food, low fat food), smaller portions of food, healthy snacks, and more things to do with physical activity. Getting involved in sports to keep the body moving, and in shape is also a good idea. The doctors also try to get the families on a plan, which will not only help with the obesity, but bring the families closer together. There is also the question; "What if those things do not work?". Well, nothing else can be done for these children. To me that is a huge problem. I feel as if it's abuse to these children. What if the parents are not doing their best to help their children, because they, themselves do not want to change? Simple truth is that when a child is in a house with obese parents, it'll effect everyone. More medical options would be a benefit.
So, with obesity rapidly growing in children, I believe it's about time for medical researchers to find a medication suitable for children. The parents also need to play a bigger role in changing too. It's time to make this rapidly growing issue something treatable for these innocent children.
Obesity is n excess amount of fat on a person, due to genes, environment, and behavior habits. It's the same for adults and children. The children living with obesity usually come from obese parents. They either get the genes of these parents, or get this disease in due time from the environment they are in, also the habits, and behavior. That would consist of their diets of high calorie, and high in fat foods; sitting in front of the T.V., and playing video games all day. That all takes it's tole on a child after so long. These children tend to eat larger portions, and a lot of junk food while in front of the T.V., and playing video games. Mothers who have diabetes also have children at risk of being obese. Health issues increase highly for the children living with obesity. The serious medical problems they get are; emotional, and social problems due to them being overweight. They are also most likely to be obese as adults with risks of heart disease, and strokes. I tend to wonder why there isn't much done about this? Are these obese parents not helping the issue of this rapid growing medical issues, and are the doctors doing everything possible to help treat this and prevent it?
There are no medication to treat these children with obesity, as there are for adults. The medication is more dangerous, than the obesity is for them. Medication used for obesity would effect the growth of a child, so they feel it's not best for them to be treated. They do recommend that the children start a healthy diet (low calorie food, low fat food), smaller portions of food, healthy snacks, and more things to do with physical activity. Getting involved in sports to keep the body moving, and in shape is also a good idea. The doctors also try to get the families on a plan, which will not only help with the obesity, but bring the families closer together. There is also the question; "What if those things do not work?". Well, nothing else can be done for these children. To me that is a huge problem. I feel as if it's abuse to these children. What if the parents are not doing their best to help their children, because they, themselves do not want to change? Simple truth is that when a child is in a house with obese parents, it'll effect everyone. More medical options would be a benefit.
So, with obesity rapidly growing in children, I believe it's about time for medical researchers to find a medication suitable for children. The parents also need to play a bigger role in changing too. It's time to make this rapidly growing issue something treatable for these innocent children.
-This is an article I wrote for an example on essays for an old teacher a few years ago on the topic "Serious Issues In The World". I did not want to go with the typical war stuff, starvation, homeless, etc etc! I challenged myself as a writer, and this is what I came up with. Thoughts, research and using my writing skills!
-Her response on my article was as follows; "This is a very well thought out and put together essay, you bring up excellent points. Excellent work!"-
Life After Death
Question always running through my mind, as well as any other living human being are; "What happens when I die? Is there really a Heaven & Hell? Does your soul really get to be free or does it just die too?" This all leads to some "after life", and we all wonder about it at one time or another, aren't we all afraid to die? I know that I am, and I also know that I wonder constantly what is going to happen to me, or when my time is going to be. I wonder how scared I will be, or if I will be as scared as I am now of dying. It's hard to put this all in prospective, no one wants to die!
I continue this battle with myself, maybe as some kind of peace in knowing, yet I always find myself still worried, or just not believing in things that I read. I don't know as a Catholic that I should believe in God, (isn't that a sin?), I don't know if I believe in the Devil, Heaven, Hell, Reincarnation, or your soul simply living on.
When we are dying do we feel pain? Well in some cases I imagine that you surely will, and in others, people die peacefully (or so we are told). Who can honestly tell me that someone dies peacefully when they are not that person, and not feeling what that person is feeling? I tend to figure in my mind that it's just a way to make people feel better, yet I don't buy it. I often wonder what people think, or feel in that moment of dying, do they wish they weren't, do they know they are still going to live in a new life, new body, or be able to make sure their loved ones are OK? I worry about a lot of things. I worry how a body that our "soul" lives in, can just die. After all isn't it our soul that is the living matter keeping the body prisoner?
It's like everything in us stops; the heart, breathing, blood flow, and your temp goes rapidly down, and that causes the body to be stiff. Why though? Is your soul saying enough? Is it saying that you've finally run this body to the ground, and I need to be free? I wonder if it's like we see in the movies where the soul is standing over their body, with the up most hurt you could see in a soul. Maybe they should stop making those movies when it's not proven that there is life after death, that's false advertisement. Then again who is to really know? They say that there are ghosts all around, so all of a sudden they are considered lost souls, I have yet to witness, so therefor I must not believe in that either.
We grieve the ones we love whom have passed on. We then move on after the grieving and live our lives like everything is OK. I just have trouble in accepting that, that's all there is to it. I have to sit and wonder, sit and think to myself and ask myself why??, and what happens now? That's who I am and I just don't accept. Here are a few example that apparently happen to your "soul" after death, with my opinions after.
Afterlife Theories:
- "Reincarnation: Your soul goes on to another body and you occupy that body until you die, and repeat the process until you understand the meaning of life."
So let's say I am the victim of "Reincarnation".. this would mean that I did not understand the meaning of life? So then you put my soul into a whole new body (assuming a baby if anything), and expect my soul to accept that? Wouldn't I be aware that this is not right, and these people in my life are not the people I know and love? Geesh no wonder babies cry like they do sometimes! That's kind of a punishment, I'd like to think! Oh wait, punishment for not understanding the meaning of life. I think I might fit well in this category!
-" Energy: Your soul (or "energy") goes on to become part of a universal energy in which you can understand the full knowledge of mankind, as their energies have conglomerated into one as well. Also used to manipulate electronics."
I just don't understand how anyone can have "full knowledge of mankind". I mean it's impossible, and those who claim to have serious issues. Then you get some super power with electronics, well that's kind of a cool outcome, but please leave mine alone! I don't like to be scared! I guess that's where they get the idea of ghosts, you know "energy", because they like to mess with electronics to communicate, right? Yeah, I just don't get this at all.
- "God: Your soul is the dust that has settled after God destroyed himself. Our lives and deaths contribute to the reconstruction of God as he was"
So, with this one I figure this is to the ones who worship and live by everything that is "God". I am sorry that I failed this but I have so much trouble in believing. Maybe he is real, and that would be so neat, but right now I have nothing to go by with all the different worships and Gods these people have.
- "Heaven/Hell/Purgatory: Judeo-Christian answer that if you are good, you go to heaven, if you are bad, you go to hell, and if you are neither, you stay in purgatory."
I don't know what to say, maybe i should ask. How do you know if you are good or bad.. and why does someone else get to decide the fate? God is suppose to love all his children, yet he apparently sends them to Hell? I thought he was about forgiveness, but maybe I am wrong.
- "Conscious: Once you have died, your soul belongs to a large conscious that is uncontrollable and all-knowing (Buddhist theory)."
So this would bring me to those movies I mentioned about the person dying and standing over their body. They are aware as to what has happened and lost and confused. I wouldn't want to have that on my shoulders.
So with those theories, I get scared more and want to never die. I don't find any of them promising, or realistic. Maybe I shall continue the "reincarnation", because I can't understand life? It's the big "circle of life", and I feel so lost in it, with these thoughts in my mind, and my soul crying because I know that some day I will die when I least expect it. There is no promise what will happen to your soul, it's someone Else's decision, so I ask why do so many continue to fight it? I know I do at times. "Life After Death", it's the question everyone has, and never will have an answer to until that fateful day takes their souls.
I continue this battle with myself, maybe as some kind of peace in knowing, yet I always find myself still worried, or just not believing in things that I read. I don't know as a Catholic that I should believe in God, (isn't that a sin?), I don't know if I believe in the Devil, Heaven, Hell, Reincarnation, or your soul simply living on.
When we are dying do we feel pain? Well in some cases I imagine that you surely will, and in others, people die peacefully (or so we are told). Who can honestly tell me that someone dies peacefully when they are not that person, and not feeling what that person is feeling? I tend to figure in my mind that it's just a way to make people feel better, yet I don't buy it. I often wonder what people think, or feel in that moment of dying, do they wish they weren't, do they know they are still going to live in a new life, new body, or be able to make sure their loved ones are OK? I worry about a lot of things. I worry how a body that our "soul" lives in, can just die. After all isn't it our soul that is the living matter keeping the body prisoner?
It's like everything in us stops; the heart, breathing, blood flow, and your temp goes rapidly down, and that causes the body to be stiff. Why though? Is your soul saying enough? Is it saying that you've finally run this body to the ground, and I need to be free? I wonder if it's like we see in the movies where the soul is standing over their body, with the up most hurt you could see in a soul. Maybe they should stop making those movies when it's not proven that there is life after death, that's false advertisement. Then again who is to really know? They say that there are ghosts all around, so all of a sudden they are considered lost souls, I have yet to witness, so therefor I must not believe in that either.
We grieve the ones we love whom have passed on. We then move on after the grieving and live our lives like everything is OK. I just have trouble in accepting that, that's all there is to it. I have to sit and wonder, sit and think to myself and ask myself why??, and what happens now? That's who I am and I just don't accept. Here are a few example that apparently happen to your "soul" after death, with my opinions after.
Afterlife Theories:
- "Reincarnation: Your soul goes on to another body and you occupy that body until you die, and repeat the process until you understand the meaning of life."
So let's say I am the victim of "Reincarnation".. this would mean that I did not understand the meaning of life? So then you put my soul into a whole new body (assuming a baby if anything), and expect my soul to accept that? Wouldn't I be aware that this is not right, and these people in my life are not the people I know and love? Geesh no wonder babies cry like they do sometimes! That's kind of a punishment, I'd like to think! Oh wait, punishment for not understanding the meaning of life. I think I might fit well in this category!
-" Energy: Your soul (or "energy") goes on to become part of a universal energy in which you can understand the full knowledge of mankind, as their energies have conglomerated into one as well. Also used to manipulate electronics."
I just don't understand how anyone can have "full knowledge of mankind". I mean it's impossible, and those who claim to have serious issues. Then you get some super power with electronics, well that's kind of a cool outcome, but please leave mine alone! I don't like to be scared! I guess that's where they get the idea of ghosts, you know "energy", because they like to mess with electronics to communicate, right? Yeah, I just don't get this at all.
- "God: Your soul is the dust that has settled after God destroyed himself. Our lives and deaths contribute to the reconstruction of God as he was"
So, with this one I figure this is to the ones who worship and live by everything that is "God". I am sorry that I failed this but I have so much trouble in believing. Maybe he is real, and that would be so neat, but right now I have nothing to go by with all the different worships and Gods these people have.
- "Heaven/Hell/Purgatory: Judeo-Christian answer that if you are good, you go to heaven, if you are bad, you go to hell, and if you are neither, you stay in purgatory."
I don't know what to say, maybe i should ask. How do you know if you are good or bad.. and why does someone else get to decide the fate? God is suppose to love all his children, yet he apparently sends them to Hell? I thought he was about forgiveness, but maybe I am wrong.
- "Conscious: Once you have died, your soul belongs to a large conscious that is uncontrollable and all-knowing (Buddhist theory)."
So this would bring me to those movies I mentioned about the person dying and standing over their body. They are aware as to what has happened and lost and confused. I wouldn't want to have that on my shoulders.
So with those theories, I get scared more and want to never die. I don't find any of them promising, or realistic. Maybe I shall continue the "reincarnation", because I can't understand life? It's the big "circle of life", and I feel so lost in it, with these thoughts in my mind, and my soul crying because I know that some day I will die when I least expect it. There is no promise what will happen to your soul, it's someone Else's decision, so I ask why do so many continue to fight it? I know I do at times. "Life After Death", it's the question everyone has, and never will have an answer to until that fateful day takes their souls.
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